One for Sorrow, Two for Joy

I would like to spread my pain, my joys, and my love to all who read my poams....Please comment

This is titled "Goddess's Oblivion" I made this for my ex- fiancée...I loved her vary much.... Love of my life, and thus to oblivion; I shall still love thee. Love of my life, thus a goddess’s Breast steady thy gaze. Love of my life; with thy dagger lunged in me, Only then shall thy goddess claim thy prize… Sweet sorrow strokes its deathly clock; to thy goddess that my love survives. Holding back my sweet demise….only then know true love shall I…I envy thee, more than life; countless life’s on a bloody spike. More I choose, more thy bleed… Thy shall kill instead; revived anew through and through. Thy lips run crimson with godly hymns, but long the devil’s main’. Only then shall earth and sky collide… Good night my love thy shall fade; in till next cycle I will pass, Through the goddess’s looking glass….

This is called "Tu-Risa" i made this when I was sad one night...

Take bread away from me, if you wish, take air away, but do not take from me your laughter. Do not take away the flower, the life that you pluck, the sun that bursts forth your joy, the sudden wave of your silver locks. My battle is hard, as I come back with tired eyes, seeing the unchanging earth. But when your laughter enters it rises to the sky seeking me, and opens the doors of life. My love, in the darkness your laughter comes real, if suddenly my blood stains the streets, laugh, for my hands to a fresh sword. Next to the sea your laughter will rise, its foamy cascade of spring. Laugh at the night, at the day, at the moon, laugh at twisted mind of your, laugh at this clumsy boy who loves you. But when I open my eyes, and close them, when my steps fade, when my steps return.Deny me bread, air, light, spring, but not that of your laughter, for I die.


This one is titled "Lover's Emptiness" This one was also made for my ex- fiancée

I have a lover purer then rain I have a lover sketched in my brain. I love my lover more than life, more the Hell’s embrace… I feel for this lover of mine; she comes to me in dreams. Her golden lochs shimmering in the sun, her lips when she kisses me take thy breath… Lover for whom I die again and again,Call me anew for I what for thee. When I die my lover descends…when I die my lover revels,That all the sadness beacons me from the gates of Hell; sends me to haven on a golden word…” I love you” I reach Heaven only to be turned away for he says “there is a family searching for you…grieving your return” I then descend again the same whey I died….thy sword levees me as I whisper in your ear “ I love you”

This one is titled " little bro" for my brother witch is my ex-fiancée's brother....I still love him vary much...Another brother of mine you know who you are this goes to you to...

Little bro, bitter and sweet, Little bro, kind in my mind;If looked for you in Oblivion Only to find myself in Hell…If looked there; if looked everywhere. Only to find my death…I hear your voice in my head only to forget it, You come to me in a dream and I remember it;I wake anew to find you there smiling at me I go to you and say “Your are the best”You say “Really?” And I say “I love you bro of mine, I love thy warmth you bring my heart. For all the boys in the world can’t come close to the love I feel for thee” You jump in my arms and say “I love you to bro”This is why you’re my best bro…

This one is titled "El-Olvido" I made this as a explanation for how I feel when I am with someone I love...

Far well, but you will come to me, with in a drop of blood in my veins, A kiss that burns my face, to a belt that burns my waist. The anguish is gone like a bolt of phosphorous, leaving us burning in captain’s steed.I return to my land with heart in hand, to share with thee, no longer am I swept by the sea. My hands filled with your naked being, why the thief sings. Your great dark eyes knew, your breast, your soul, that I live to die again.

This one is titled "La-Pregunta" I made this for people that think i am wired and this is my personal way of explaining it to you...

A question has destroyed you, I have come back to you from uncertain darkness, i want you straight as the sword in my heart. But you insist on keeping a shadow I do not know, understand, I love all of you from head to toe. It is I who knocks on your door, I enter all your life, I live in your soul, you can’t steer from the light. Do not fear, for I am yours, the one who you where waiting for. I enter your life no more to levee it, but can you reseve it?


This one is titled " Light and Darkness" I made this so people will understand what if been through and so people that read this will learn from my mistakes....

What is light? Light is the power, but is not the key. Light is in you and me but know this light turns to darkness, why? Darkness is born in ever heart as hatred, lies, furry, as well as the lust to destroy...How do we battle this darkness? By having drugs to null the pain? No! You must have the will the will, the light, to conquer the darkness within the heart. And maybe just maybe the light will return to warm the hearts of your enemies, so they may love once again. Which do you choose light or darkness?

This one is titled "Endless War" for the battle in my heart...

I fly on silent wings to war only to face myself in death...I fly on broken wings to heaven only to face rejection...I fly on when all is lost and forgotten...Only to find your love Conquer thee...

This one is titled "Love for a brother' I wrote this one in hopes my words would cure his illness...

Brother, oh brother I here thee call…I fly to thee on Heaven’s law…I here thee cries of endless pain…I cast thy soul aside; so that I may die…I rise in you brother, feeling your demise…My heart’s passé quickens like silver; matching your stride….I give thee thy life; only to transcend…Only to die.


This one is titled" Beauty for Pain" I wrote this for my brother's mom in hopes it would cleanse her body of all evil..

I feel thee pain from afar….I fly to thee from thy heart…On Silent wings I soar…On Cherished words I adore. For thy words I speck to thee, for I fall into misery…I fight for thee life with blood stained hands; with sword outstretched and broken amen’s. The battle is lost but not forgotten; for there is hope in thee. I rise from oblivion only to fall, fall into heaven’s law. Thy body is sacrificed with spear to spike…For thy life is over…Anew is born with you; born of my will…I fought for thee love only to face death…But in outstretched hands gained forgiveness. Forgiveness of thy Scorching fire that burned in me. That fire now burns in you cleansing your soul of all evil…For I have brought beauty form your pain; but memory of me shall live on thee…For memory of you shall live on in me.

This one is titled "Power of Connection" I wrote this one for my brother's, brother for he also fell sick...

Brother I connect to thee…For thy soul runs free…Waiting for connection; between you and me. For I take a part of me and give it to thee…Thus, I spiral into the unknown…I Find you there on one knee; crying to heaven to set you free…For I walk with you in the darkness… Our bodies resonate with one another. For I am a part of you, as you are a part of me…The light from our new found friendship disperses the darkness; for a light shins within…For your evil is gone, for you are healed. As we walk hand and hand to salvation…A questions resides: “will you forget me” ?

We all live under one sky, we all corss paths in destiny...



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Thinking of you, wherever you are.
We pray for our sorrows to end,
and hope that our hearts will blend.
Now I will step forward to realize this wish.
And who knows:
Starting a new journey may not be so hard,
or maybe it has already begun.
There are many worlds,
But they share the same sky -
one sky, one destiny.
-Kingdom Hearts
As we think of one another, we feel one another… Our hearts are connected through friendship, through love; One may say love is just an illusion. But when two people bond, when two people journey; a connection is born. For those two people will be a part of each other’s lives…For eternity; for we all “share one sky, one destiny”…For we all yearn for love…As we “Step forward to realize this wish”, we all win; we all blend.
-Jacob Adger Ramsey

Dream Journal

10/15/1998 (6 years old)
" I was in a large parking lot, and it happened to be Wal*Mart. Lots of people where ruining out of Wal*Mart; strangely the weren't screaming...Then all of a sudden a giant Yoda walked out from behind Wal*Mart and smooched me like a bug...Then I woke up"


7/10/1999 (7 years old)
" I was walking down the hallway of my old condo, I walk into my grandmother's bedroom; it had changed from a regular bed room to a red draped slather room...For some odd resin I said "Mother?" then I looked at a Red velvet chair in the corner of the room...And a glowing red eyed THING jumped on top of me and ripped out my ribcage; I awoke an my chest was burning."


12/23/2001 (10 years old)
" I looked under my covers and said "Can I have some milk?" and the old hag from Dark Stone, flew from under my covers into my face...I wake up in a fair nice; house the old hag pours me a class of milk and says " drink it up for strong bones". So I drank it, it was warm...Then I wake up in a sweat."

Comfortable Place

My comfortable place is with the ones I love, the ones I share day to day experiences with. For when I am alone I feel threatened, empty, and incomplete…When I am around friends and family I feel alive, complete, and loved…My strength; does not come from me alone, but from my friends and family. I will fight to keep my friends by my side; I will fight to keep my family alive. When I am alone I might as well be in an insane asylum; for I will die inside. For I care for others more than I do myself, I put my friends and family’s priorities over mine. I will take a bullet, a car, or even the blame for my loved ones…This is my comfortable place…This is my safety zone; tear me from them, and I will rip your heart out! For I am invincible in the heart of a friend…I am everlasting in the mind of a sibling, for my comfort comes form with in…Within me and the ones I hold dear…

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When I was just 7 years of age; in 4 grade…I was rapped; rapped by the people I called friends. Do to this incident I fell into a state of peculiar circumstances…I longed for a person’s touch; so I sleeked it through other friends…Thus I became bi-sexual. All though before this incident accrued, If always longed to be around other people. I was born a preemie; I was 2’ 8’…I was on the verge of death; in till I felt the touch of my grandmother’s fingers…I turned to her and look at here in the eyes’ for that was the day she fell in love with me…Me here first grandson; as I grew older and stronger I lived to see tomorrow…I lived to be 18.

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For I am now 18, I have a job at Kroger and I attend TCC south campus college. I can sing and dance; I can braw with the best. I have survived because of my family, I have survived because my friends believed in me…I will continue to fight for my comfort space…My space created by love; love shared by the hearts of my friends and family.



By,
Jacob Hampton Adger Ramsey

Unforgettable Holiday

Spring

Spring break of 2010, spring at that moment was special to me…For I meet my first, and always best friend; Cody Howard. Even after 6 long years of being apart we still share the strong bound we had as children, Cody invited me to go on a kayaking trip with him. Me, him, and his family; apart from the 20 questions we continued to reply back and forth, we began to grow closer as friends and even more so…
When we got to the cabin that we were going to stay in for the week, Cody asked if I would go exploring with him after we un-packed; of course I said yes! “Jacob over here!” Cody said as I ran passed him, “where are we going?” I said. “You will see” said Cody; we enter a cover of trees with a large gap in the middle, were the moon and the stars shined through. “It’s beautiful isn’t it” Cody said, “It sure is” I replied. We sat there for a moment; then he put his hand in mine…I turn and smiled; he said “I love you” and kissed me…

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Me and Cody first meet when we were still in elementary school, we would play all day in the condominium complex we used to stay in; so we lived really close to each other. I would always sneak over to my grandfathers and grandmothers house (they lived right next door to me and my parents) I would always see my grandfather reading the news paper in the living room. He knew I was there before I knocked on the door! We would make peanut butter and jelly and watch TV in till the crake of dawn…Then one the sun came up I ran to Cody’s house and before I could knock on the door he would always jump out and give me a big hug; of course I won the Who can hug hardest contest! We would play all day, and sometimes I would stay over at his house for the day. We would tell stories and play videos games all night! And we liked to sleep in the same bed (we were just kids and the parents thought it was cute)…But after just a few years of playing; we had to move…I told Cody the news and we both cried for hours. I promised we would see each other again someday, gave him a big hug and left…
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I couldn’t move! His dry, yet warm; passionate kiss swallowed me. I never felt so sure about anything In my life…But I knew I loved him. So I reacted with a deeper, more special kiss. We then laid there under the stars pointing out constellations and making up battle senses and playing them out in the vast sea of endless stars and darkness…
We made a good excuse as why we were gone for 3 hours to tell to is parents, then we curled up in bed together as we always did ( surprisingly his parents just smiled and went to bed to…Maybe they knew.) They shut the door…We what’d a few hours to make sure they were asleep; then we had sex for the first time…
The next day we kayaked down the river for 25 miles, the sun gave me the tan I need to impress Cody with my muscular fuses. He look good in a bathing suit himself; his short wet-blond hair covering one eye, and his skinny yet smooth complexities (we both shaved our body’s as to heighten the muscle tone and fullness of our body’s) So After the day was over we explored the place with the closure of trees and the moon and the stars again…I cried; “what’s wrong?” Cody says to me, “Will I ever see you again?” I said with tears running down my crimson cheeks. (He wipes them from my face) “ Of course you will” he says as he kisses me for the final time…We headed back to the cabin and crawled in bed and had our last lust together before we had to go home the next day. We parted ways after his parents dropped me of at my house…We both waved good bye, smiling, knowing that we would see each other again soon.



To this day I see Cody ever time we can get away from our busy lives...
And we will always be best friends (with a few beneficial exceptions)
For the rest of our lives…
For part of my heart will always belong to him, as part of his will always belong to me.

Descriptive Writing

Lost self, Dakota has lost part of himself; he has lost Bill. Bill and Dakota just happen to be in the wrong place at the wrong time, it was 2001 at 9:52 am. “The twin towers have been hit” says Dakota; as his mom is crying “Bill! Oh my God, Bill!” says Christen. As the twin towers are falling Bill is racing down a hallway even as it is tilting down from the plan crashing, ominously on his floor. Luckily the door to the other part of the hall way is open; he jumps and grabs the hand almost a second too late! “Oh crap!, the hinges are braking” Bill screams, so he pulls with all of his might and managers to spring up and catch the door frame…
“Dear god that was close” he murders to himself as he pulls himself up and walks to the other office that is still standing. Back at the house, Dakota and Christen call Bill’s phone. Ring, ring…ring, ring….(click) “ Dad?” quivering Dakota manages. “If you want your father back bring $1,000,000 by the end of the day or he will die” Click! Dakota runs out the door “Dakota, come back!” yells Christen; but he’s already gone. As the terrorists walks out of the room after beating and tying up Bill, the leave the room and lock the door.

Bill quickly Knocks the chair he is in over and begins to rub the rope together, thus causing friction. After 5 minutes rubbing the rope brakes shortly after…But by the time he tries to find a escape root; as the door is opening he slides and close the door with speed and puts the chair under the door knob. Before the brake open the door Bill has escaped through the window.
Bill is now running home, when he gets there the car is gone! He barges in, “where’s Dakota?!” says Bill. “Looking for you!” Says Christen. “Stay here and I’ll find him! “Says bill- “come back safe!” but he is gone before she finishes the sentence. Dakota is mesmerized by the destroyed office of his father… “Hay, kid!” –“ oh crap!” Dakota quickly runs to the elevator; as it closes shots are fired but the door closes in time for the door to block the bullets. He reaches the bottom floor; terrorist running from the stares. Luckily there out of bullets, ( form shooting the other workers in the offices) when Dakota brakes through the front door he slides forward to avoid gun fire from the army unit circling the entrance and as bullets light up the terrorists; “ Dakota!” yells Bill. “Dad!”… Dakota quickly runs toward his father jumping in to a massive embrace. “Your alive thank the lord!” Dakota manages while crying. “You’re not hurt!” says Bill with a smirch on his face. The both turn and watch the light show of bullets tearing the terrorist limb from limb and look into each other’s eyes and just smiled.